Arctin

Greetings earthlings :) A bit late for doing this but a great procrastinator I am this is unavoidable. In 2015, getting straight A's in the national exam was something that I never imagined honestly.I just stu(died) for the sake of my parents and because that's what most student did right? Secured a scholarship to study abroad was beyond my wildest imagination either. Yes I've dreamt of studying in UK,Egypt or South Korea even (blame it on my once Kpop obsession) but to actually have the chance I am beyond speechless. Alhamdulillah. This month I went to Singapore for a Model United Nations conference. My former teacher called me and told me that my school innovation project was chosen to represent Malaysia to go to China and will be presented in Beijing this March. When I finished my secondary school,I was awarded Best Student for Academic  curriculum activities for representing my school in various level,national and international. Does my life looks perfect ...

I thought we were something A thing I thought that there we were special I thought that the feelings were mutual I was being delusional I was deluded to think that there is something going on  between us That we were heading somewhere Somewhere where only we know I was deceived by your kindness, By your gestures, By your smile I thought I was special to you like the way you were special to me How wrong I was To believe that you were into me As I were into you What left between us were only endless regrets

Once, there was a girl who enjoyed her life to the fullest and never give a damn about what people said. She was loud, fearless and brave. She was not afraid to be in crowd. She was comfortable with crowd and strangers. She was once an extrovert. Time flies and time change her. No, hurtful memories and betrayal change her. Now she is socially hates crowds, socially awkward, afraid of rejection, withdrawn herself from any social events, shrink herself into the corner, comfortable with loneliness and insecure of herself. She was once a happy girl but now there is a demon living inside her head. Once her life revolved around others but now she had her epiphany that she was once stupid to willingly give everything to everyone but no one gives a shit about her. She was too kind to everyone but everyone was so mean to her. She blindly loyal to her so called friends but in the end everyone stabbed her in the back. Now, whenever she wants to engage in a new friendship, she’s afra...